Who Am I ?
Yesterday I bumped into something that’s not nice and it made me asked a lot of questions to God. The world is so unfair, a lot of people are so deceived including the ones that I love, and that hurt me. I know he has blessed me so much and He is at work in me… maturing me through different circumstances. But what I got into was really hurting me. I couldn’t help but ask God for comfort and answers to my questions. It made me realized that following Christ isn’t really that easy… it takes a lot of His grace for me to overcome difficult situations everyday. It’s always by choice to follow Christ and never by emotions. Confused and hurt, I then decided to go back and listen to the prophecy I got a month ago, played worship songs and worshipGod regardless of the unexplainable situation and pain. I was reminded that every second counts and every detail of my life matters to Him. To SURRENDER everything to him means to make him part of my ENTIRE life. It means to TRUST him with all of my heart and not to depend on my own understanding, to always SEEK him in ALL I do (that’s in Proverbs 3:5-6, the word I got from a friend). I was begging God to reveal more of his self to me so I could fully trust him. I was desperate; I want to be reminded of who I am to him. I want to know him more. When I listened to the recording of my prophecy, I was told that I should always go back to God’s word and that I should always listen to God’s word and not to the world, and that every oppression, negative attacks and stronghold that I have can be broken by God’s word. And that it’s only by God’s word that I will find refreshment and be sustained especially when I become so weary like yesterday. It made sense to me. So after crying it all out to Him, I got my bible, prayed and sought God. God spoke to me through his word in Isaiah. It talks about Comfort for God’s people, God’s help & promise for Israel. Amazing how he did comfort me that even up to this time, I couldn’t get enough of it. Here’s what I got:
In Isaiah 40:12 it says:
Who else has held the oceans in his hand?
Who has measured off the heavens with his fingers?Who else knows the weight of the earthor has weighed the mountains and hills on a scale?
And in verses 21-23:
Haven’t you heard? Don’t you understand?Are you deaf to the words of God—the words he gave before the world began?Are you so ignorant?God sits above the circle of the earth.The people below seem like grasshoppers to him!He spreads out the heavens like a curtainand makes his tent from them.He judges the great people of the worldand brings them all to nothing.
I was rebuked really. But I was in awe knowing how big God is, Amazing! Everything in the universe is too small for Him but why do people can’t even worship him? rather, they tend to worship and praise his CREATIONS (than the creator), it’s such a shame! I’ve been saying and believing that I’m serving a BIG GOD but I knew that i need to know more about him..i wanted to know more on how big and great God is and there… I got the answers.
Not only that, he also promised STRENGTH, as stated in verses 29-31:
“He gives power to the weakand strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired,and young men will fall in exhaustion.But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.”
We are all human, which means that we all get tired. What happened to me yesterday was really exhausting. I was emotionally down. I got so weak. However, weakness and weariness isn’t always a bad thing. In fact, it points out and reinforces the fact that we are very limited and finite beings. It causes us to look elsewhere for strength because we know that we are at the end of our own strength. The Apostle Paul knew this well. He was suffering. He prayed and asked God to remove his “thorn in the flesh.” God didn’t remove it. Instead God told him, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12.9).
And there’s more… which was good news and really, it uplifted my soul (see what God’s word can do… J)
Isaiah 41:10-13 says:
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you.I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you.I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
“See, all your angry enemies lie there,confused and humiliated.Anyone who opposes you will die and come to nothing.You will look in vainfor those who tried to conquer you.Those who attack youwill come to nothing.For I hold you by your right hand—I, the Lord your God.
Then Isaiah 43:1-10 continues to encourage me and comfort me. I just find it so amazing how God cares and loves someone like me who’s not even worthy of it. I was born a sinner and I did a lot of crazy things in the past that really hurt my creator but he redeemed me, I was given another chance to live a life that’s so beautiful and was bought at a high price through Jesus on the cross.
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.I have called you by name; you are mine.When you go through deep waters,I will be with you.When you go through rivers of difficulty,you will not drown.When you walk through the fire of oppression,you will not be burned up;the flames will not consume you.
“But you are my witnesses, O Israel!” says the Lord.“You are my servant.You have been chosen to know me, believe in me,and understand that I alone am God.There is no other God—there never has been, and there never will be.
“Do not be afraid” was repeated more than once, so it really means something. God’s telling me that I shouldn’t be afraid, what can man do to me? And God’s telling me to PERSEVERE… to ENDURE and not give up so easily with what I see. He is in control. I also realized that being called to be his servant and witness is such a privilege. God doesn’t really need my help to save people from the wage of sin (which is eternal death), but He has given me a privilege to be part of his plans. Really amazing!
Definitely what I experienced yesterday wasn’t just for myself because when I began to go back on what God has to say in my situation, he opened my eyes to the truth about me and my life here on earth and how it can give impact to the people around me. So when I felt that I should blog about this and share, I did it right away hoping that other people would learn something about how God can work in their lives too. This is not about me anymore, it’s all about him. And whatever it is that’s hurting me and frustrating me, it is nothing compared to what he has prepared for me for his glory. I just really need to always fix my eyes on Him and FOCUS on his word and his promises will surely come to pass. I may not see things changed right now but I am confident that God hears me and is currently at work in my life.
“See, I am doing a new thing!Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?I am making a way in the desertand streams in the wasteland.”
(Isaiah 43:19)
In the natural, things are really hopeless in this so-called life, it’s frustrating! If you know me and my life story, you’d probably say it’s impossible to get complete restoration and see answered prayers. Some people said that no matter how I would pray, it will not change things because they based it from what they see at present. But nothing is impossible with God and He is a God who restores everything that has been devoured by the enemy. He said in his word that “the prayers of the righteous are powerful and effective” (James 5:16) so I am not giving up. I am never intimidated with what’s going on, I serve a BIG GOD, bigger than those people, relationships…bigger than my circumstances…bigger than the universe.
“And we are confident that he hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases him. And since we know he hears us when we make our requests, we also know that he will give us what we ask
for.” (1John 5:14-15)
Never stop praying. (1 Thessalonians 5:17)
